It has been awhile since I last wrote…there have been many significant changes in my life that have required most of my time, attention, and energy. What I am most grateful for is that the more I trust in myself and what is POSSIBLE, the more things come together. I used to NEED a plan—I needed to know exactly how things were going to happen before I’d make a move. I analyzed the possible outcomes and created a plan to move forward. This approach offered security. I knew what to expect. However, rarely did it lead to fulfilment. I achieved my goal and was left feeling empty, wondering what was next.
Over the past 8 months, I have summoned the courage to take a new approach—LEAP. Well…I have to be honest and admit they are still somewhat safe leaps, but leaps nonetheless. I have stepped forward without knowing what the next step would be. For someone who has lived by a plan her whole life, this was quite scary at times and most definitely unnerving all of the time. I knew the essence of what I wanted in life but I had no idea what it would specifically look like. Since trying to figure out exactly what it would look like before making a move was not getting where I wanted to be, I had no other choice then to take a new approach.
What I want you to know is that even though it has been an uncomfortable process, the results have been better than I could have ever predicted. I never could have imagined to arrange things the way they are right now. By allowing things to unfold, I can actually achieve what I have always hoped to achieve. I knew what I wanted. I never lost sight of the essence, but I allowed life to present opportunities rather than trying to “create” or “plan” for opportunities.
Through allowing, all the pieces of my life are moving to align with this new way of being. I don’t have the consistency or predictability that I once called security. What I have gained is a life that reflects who I am. What I have gained is a respect for my authentic self as I have never known. The more I honor and respect my own authenticity, the more I find people who do the same (for me and for themselves).
The encouragement that comes from authenticity is paralleled by none. So, when things are changing in your life, when all the pieces are moving and nothing feels secure or predictable, know that change is on the way. Remember the growing pains you had as a child? This is sort of the same. Change may feel painful or uncomfortable but if it is to honor your authentic self, everything will fall into place if you trust and allow things to unfold.